Monday, March 19, 2007

Day one

Just got back from the gym and was excited that I ran 2.35 miles in 39 minutes. (Not my best of course but will keep on going until I can run 5 miles). Boy I hate the bloody gym but I need to do it and need to incorparate exercise into my weekly routine.

Goals for today1. Gym - 45 minutes cario and 20 minutes strength training. Ab work and squats later on today.
2. Vitamins - Calcium, Evening Primrose Oil, Fish Oil, B6, Vitamin C, Vitamin E, and Folic Acid. (for those of you who suffer from PMS this is the best combo of Vitamins you can take. Also, it makes your skin look like you have drank 8 glasses of water a day.
3. The T.V will not go on until 8.00 PM tonight.
4. 6 glasses of water at least.
5. All meals will be eaten at the table so it feels like I have had a meal instead of sitting in front of the T.V.
6. Greens with every evening meal, including tonight.
7. No verbal self deprecation.

Meal Plan for the day

Should have eaten earlier before the gym but didn't have any food.

Breakfast - 2 slices of double fiber bread, a thin smear of natural peanut butter and a smear of sugar free jelly; coffee and water.

Snack - Plain low fat yogurt, a few nuts, 1/2 teaspoon of wheat germ and two table spoons of sugar free apple sauce.

Lunch - Lentil soup, carrots and a pear


Dinner - Brown rice, black beans, chicken breast, cilantro, tomatoes in a low fat whole wheat tortilla.

Spinach on the side. Strawberries and a table spoon of sugar free apple sauce.


I didn't work at the office today and am instead working from home. I am going to turn off my computer at 5.00 today and make tomorrow my "ONLY" late office day.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Sorry about the huge pictures!

Welcome to my blog!

Hello all,

I hope you are all well. I wanted to kill two birds with one stone and use this blog, (never thought I would have a blog) as a way of keeping in contact with you all here in the US and also back home in Wales. I also wanted to share some news with you in a hope that I could receive you support.

I am about to turn 37 on April, can you believe it, time flies? I have been reflecting on my 20's and my 30's and can you believe it I have worried about my weight and body size every single moment of every single day, EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY! Of course some of you know I have been a chronic binger for almost 17 years and have recently stopped about 2 months ago.

Well, I have news for all of you; I refuse to worry about my weight any more, go on a diet any more or starve and binge anymore in order to be a size 4. Which brings me to the purpose of this posting.

As of tomorrow March 19th 2006 I am going to begin to change my life completely and take charge of my life once and for all, and I am asking for your support.

I plan on incorporating a healthy eating regimen, exercise 3 times a week, spend less hours at work and more time having more fun in my life. I have also been a terrible friend lately and I am at the point where I may lose some of my solid friendships due to my neglect.

I have spent 90% of my time in the last two years devoted to work....90%, this includes working weekends. I come home from work daily and slump in front of the t.v usually eating large quantities of food to self soothe and medicate.

Food was/is the only way I would pamper myself and it would be a treat and a reward at the end of a terribly long work day or work week. I would think nothing to have 4 large cupcakes for diner.

I literally feel like I am asleep at the wheel and I am walking around on auto pilot; I refuse to feel this way anymore.

I plan on setting some goals for myself and I am hoping for your support because I am scared that I will once again fail which of course always leads to a mass influx of self deprecation triggering a binge which has always had a circular, predictable and consistent outcome leading me right where I started. I must say that I am quite determined this time around. You see change terrifies me, absolutely terrifies me but I need to change my life because I feel so unfulfilled all of the time. I need to change and have a better quality of life, which I will

I am hoping that I will receive some suggestions on how to create a better quality of life for myself from all you experienced folks :-)

My goals for this year are as follows and I plan on reaching all of them by the end of the year.

1. To be completely out of debt, (I already paid off $4000 in credit card debt, yay!)
2. To lose the 12 IBS I have recently gained plus an extra 3IBS
3. To incorporate exercise at least 3 times a week
4. To eat nutritious and healthy food
5. To spend more time with friends, especially Andrea and Ben
6. To stay late only one night out of the week at work
7. To be able to again run 5 miles with ease
8. To watch less T.V
9. To find ways other than food and shopping to pamper myself
10. To worry less

So here we go!

Today I weigh 159 IBS, yikes. I will weigh myself every two weeks. I am going to monitor my daily meals, work schedule , exercise regimen and anything else in my life.

If anyone could give me some tips along the way, like recipes, good movies and books, or anything else that would help me on my journey I would be ever so appreciative.

Thanks and away we go!